Even the Darkness is Light

The first time I read my full body…

I had just spent the week learning to decode every part—separate readings for the hands, face, and feet, all the individual markers of inherited patterns and emotional imprints. But it wasn’t until I learned to read how the full body is shaped and completed my summary that I felt it.

The full weight and impact of what I had lived through.

The years I had survived.

The truth I had been carrying in my posture, health breakdowns, how I was breathing, the shapes of all my parts, my story as clear as day… Nobody had to validate me anymore because it was etched into my body—for anyone with eyes to see.

I couldn’t even bring myself to read my final report before class. I felt too tender, too overexposed. And honestly, my teacher hadn’t developed the presence to guide someone through that level of unbecoming.

Why I Teach This Work With So Much Love

What I gained through that experience was life-changing:

I discovered I’d always had an ally in me.

I just hadn’t learned how to see Her.

How to listen. How to feel.

How to trust the whispers-and shouts-of my Soul.

Body language gave me the map.

The structure.

The clarity.

The path to my own redemption.

It allowed me to rediscover every part of myself I had neglected, run from, feared, hated, or dismissed.

Each time I faced a new part of myself, I saw just how deep this love goes. And I was reminded again of the sacred truth I had once read but never truly understood:

“Even the darkness is not dark to You,

And the night is as bright as the day.

Darkness and light are alike to You.” —Psalm 139:12

Everywhere I had been, God was right there with me.

Everything I had done, God experienced it with me.

Because God was inside me, always by my side, always speaking, always showing me what love really was. And now, after years of practice and devotion, this is exactly what I get to hold space for inside all my offerings.

This week one of my students messaged me, afraid to finish her own face reading, and even more scared to complete her father’s reading. She didn’t say this, but what I felt in my body from remembering my own experience facing myself and my parents was this:

“Am I like them too?”

“Did I hurt people?”

“What did I do to myself?”

I felt her fear so deeply—because I’ve been there.

What I’ve Learned Through Reading My Parents’ Faces

What felt even more scary than acknoweledging what I lived through—was seeing how I saw my parents in me.

Their rage.

Their patterns.

Their unspoken pain…

Being lived out in my choices!

It broke me open.

And it was validating. I wasn’t crazy. I wasn’t making it up.

My child self had felt the truth—and now my adult self could see it with clarity.

As I healed and integrated those parts over time, I began to see parents as more than just my abusers, but as humans who had also been shaped by pain, their own traumas, environment, and their own unmet needs.

We’re Not Here to Save Each Other—We’re Here to See

As someone who does her best to embody Divine Mother energy, I wish I could take everyone’s pain away in an instant. But I understand the value of walking through the fire, not around it.

Of seeing clearly what hurt, what we need, and what to do next.

That’s what this work gives you.

Not a savior.

But a mirror.

A roadmap.

A spiritual practice that returns you to yourself and your Source.

So I told my student who was in the fear:

“The best gift is to be able to see yourself clearly.

You are surrounded by the love and empowerment you need to walk through this.

I’ve been there… and the other side is truly ALL love.”

I also sent her some videos. One of me reading my stepfather’s face. One of Jeffrey Dahmer’s. One of my own—showing how trauma, if ignored, shapes the body over decades.

These weren’t “gotcha” moments. They were compassion mirrors.

An opportunity to show how light shines in all forms of darkness and says:

“This doesn’t feel good.”

“Please care for me.”

“Please listen.”

Yes, even them.

Even the abuser.

Even the murderer.

Even the one who seems farthest from redemption.

Their Darkness Speaks Love

Because here’s what Body language has shown me what that verse means:

Even in the most deprived expression of consciousness a human being is in, no matter how far they run from the presence of Love, the light of their Soul is still shining in the darkness, screaming: “THIS DOESN’T FEEL GOOD!”

In all our hiding spots…

When we’re ignoring…

When we’re scared…

When we’re running…

When we stick our heads in the sand…

When we’re dead asleep or unconscious…

Even when we hate God, ourselves, and each other…

God is right fucking there with you.

This Is My Invitation to You

Step inside the circle.

Stop watching from the sidelines.

You’re not going to transform through osmosis.

You won’t feel full living on breadcrumbs when there’s a feast waiting for you.

You were made for deep nourishment.

Not one massage and a bubble bath.

I’m talking that daily, devotional, “for better or worse” “through all my sickness and into my health” kind of love.

The kind of love that reflects your soul back to you with clarity and compassion.

You’re not here to be saved by me or anyone else

You’re here to be seen.

To become the mirror.

To rise into your power and become your purpose.

I chuckle now at the futility of running from myself and God, because God never stops loving. God never leaves. Till the day we die, to our very last breath of denial, God is right there speaking through your body. Teaching you from the inside out how to love, how to listen, how to live.

I don’t have a magic wand for you.

AND I do have a clear, embodied way to hear God.

And the tools to teach you how to embody what God is showing you.

Because that’s what this is really about.

Building a foundation of love so solid you no longer need to fear your reflection.

It’s about walking step-in-step with your own Soul—and allowing that truth liberate you.

It’s about learning to see and hear what your Soul has been trying to say this whole Goddess blissed time!

“Thank you for being you and letting your love and knowledge shine on me and your tribe. I love you and truly value all you do and teach and share.” —Diane

“Face reading forces a necessary vulnerability. Kelly teaches us to be our own foundation and take responsibility for our lives. She offers so much love and compassion, and it’s contagious.

Her class left me feeling powerful, and capable to understand and utilize the easy concepts of face reading.” —Gina

If this is speaking to your heart, ask me how to start learning God’s built-in communication system. From Face Reading, to Emotional Body Archetypes, to regular sacred GIFT EXCHANGE opportunities, to deep diving into the full body, I’ve got your back, boo! I love you!