In the Beginning… We Were Lied To! P.S. Eve was onto something!
A Note Before We Begin
I’ve watched a number of holistic healers and spiritual teachers have their “come back to Jesus” moment—and I feel the need to speak up. Because what’s being called a return to faith looks more like a regression into cognitive dissonance and spiritual psychosis.
I’m not here to deconstruct for attention.
I’m here to expose distortion and reclaim what’s real.
This is personal.
I spent nearly 40 years immersed in Christianity.
Nineteen of those years I lived the “Christian life” with deep conviction—church multiple times a week, daily Bible study, scripture memorization, mission trips, volunteering, youth camps, even seminary acceptance to pursue my MDiv. I was all in.
Until I wasn’t.
Until my body began to tell me the truth my spirit could no longer deny.
Hebrew is a Soul Language
Before we dive in, you need to know this:
Hebrew is not a literal language.
It’s a multi-dimensional language filled with metaphor, energy, and encoded revelation. The words have layers: physical, emotional, symbolic, and spiritual. What you’re reading isn’t just a story—it’s a soul map.
What follows is my reclamation of that map.
The Real Beginning: Feminine Illumination
Genesis describes the Spirit of God (ruach) moving over the earth that was formless and chaotic-depicting what it’s like when matter has not been brought to form. It was also in darkness (choshek).
“Ruach” is a feminine noun and in ancient Hebrew culture, "ruach" was understood as a vital force or life-giving breath. It was seen as an essential element of life, akin to the breath that animates living beings. The concept of "ruach" as spirit also reflects the Hebrew understanding of God's immanence and transcendence, where God's Spirit is both present in creation and beyond it. The term is deeply embedded in the Hebrew worldview, which sees the physical and spiritual realms as interconnected.
The Hebrew word "choshek" primarily denotes the absence of light, both in a literal and metaphorical sense. It is used to describe physical darkness, such as the darkness of night or a dark place. Metaphorically, it can represent ignorance, evil, judgment, or the absence of God's presence and favor.
So we have this vital life force that is a Feminine Spirit hovering (brooding or caring for, like a hen for her chics) over these chaotic, formless, and dark waters. And the Spirit inspires life by commanding/speaking into existance ILLUMINATION ("אוֹר")!
The Hebrew word "אוֹר" ('or) primarily denotes "light" in a physical, metaphorical, and spiritual sense. It is used to describe the natural light of day, the light of heavenly bodies, and the light of life and prosperity. Metaphorically, it represents truth, guidance, and the presence of God. In the spiritual context, 'or is often associated with divine revelation and the moral and ethical illumination provided by God's word.”
The first act of Divine inspiration wasn’t condemnation.
It was illumination—bringing light to what was still unformed.
The Divine Womb
The second act was to create a space for that new life to grow in. The Spirit of God then separated the waters (mayim) above from the waters below and created a firmament (raqia).
“The Hebrew word "mayim" primarily refers to water in its various forms and uses. It is a fundamental element in the Bible, symbolizing life, purification, chaos, and divine provision. Water is essential for physical survival, agricultural prosperity, and ritual cleanliness in the Hebrew Scriptures.
The term "raqia" refers to the expanse or firmament that God created to separate the waters above from the waters below. It is often understood as the sky or the heavens, serving as a dome-like structure that encompasses the earth. In the biblical creation narrative, it is described as a significant part of the ordered cosmos, demonstrating God's sovereignty and creative power.”
So first we had illumination, now we have the space for illumination to grow in-a womb if you will! Once the womb has been created, then the earth begins to take shape.
You Were Made in Divine Image—Not for Domination
By the command of the Creators WORD dry land appears, waters gather, vegetation grows, a star system put in place to remind us of the times and seasons, the sea, skies and land are filled with animals. When all was ready, the Creator made humanity in Its image—Tselem.
“The Hebrew word "tselem" primarily denotes an image or likeness. It is used in the context of representing something, often in a physical or visual form. In the biblical narrative, "tselem" is most notably used to describe humanity being made in the "image" of God, signifying a representation or reflection of God's attributes.
In the ancient Near Eastern context, images or idols were commonly used in religious practices to represent deities. These images were believed to embody the presence or essence of the gods they depicted. The biblical use of "tselem" to describe humanity as made in God's image was revolutionary, emphasizing the unique relationship between God and humans, and the inherent dignity and value of human life.”
This means that in our body we inherently have the ability to reflect the true nature of the Creator because that’s where we came from and in whose likeness we’re made.
This story is about creation, not control.
It’s about sovereignty, not sin.
The real Creator—this Divine Feminine energy—hovered, felt, shaped, and called forth order from chaos. Just like a womb.
What I see in this story is a profound blueprint—not just of how the world was created, but of how we are meant to create in the image of God.
It was the feminine Spirit that brought illumination to the spiritual darkness.
It was the Feminine Spirit that made order out of spiritual chaos.
This creation story is a depiction of what the feminine form represents as the reflection of God, the one who bring order and form to chaos.
Just as the creator brought illumination and order to the chaos that was without form, so too are we to bring illumination to the children that come from our wombs of creation.
Enter: The Imposter God
Now… Genesis 2. The tone shifts.
Suddenly, we’re reading about a “God” who creates a man from dust. Not through breath and word—but from leftovers. Then, this god realizes the man is lonely and builds him a helper from his rib.
Ummmm… what?
In Genesis 1, the divine created male and female in harmony.
In Genesis 2, the woman is an afterthought.
This isn’t a continuation of the same story. This is a different god.
The real Creator felt the potentiality of life and chose to bring her illumination into the spaces that have not experiences spiritual light and life!
By her own divine inspiration, she spoke things into life and put within them the ability to see and feel God because that’s where they came from and whose image they were made in.
Fast forward and we see another God talking about how everything was so amazing, but oopsies, he needed someone to attend to it all. So he created a slave race of MEN out of the leftovers of what was already created, and then breathed life into it.
I’m not sure about y’all, but this sounds like human cloning to me. Some god or other advanced being trying to replicate what the original creator made, except attempting to do so under a different code of slavery.
The First Narcissist in the Bible
Obviously that ain’t gonna fly because the Creator already made creation to function a certain way. Life comes from the feminine. So now we have this pseudo-creator attempting to now fashion a woman out of a man so he can continue to breed his slave race.
Then this god tells Adam that he can eat anything in the garden, including from the Tree of Life, except from the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil, at least that’s how it was mistranslated. Let’s get into some etymology.
“Knowledge”: The Hebrew word "daath" primarily refers to knowledge, understanding, or perception. It encompasses both intellectual comprehension and experiential knowledge. In the biblical context, "daath" often implies a deep, intimate understanding that goes beyond mere factual information, encompassing moral and spiritual dimensions.
"Good”: The Hebrew word "towb" primarily conveys the idea of goodness in various forms, whether moral, aesthetic, or practical. It is used to describe what is beneficial, pleasing, or morally right. As an adjective, it often describes the quality of objects, actions, or people. As a noun, it can refer to the concept of goodness itself. As a verb, it implies the act of being or doing good.
In ancient Hebrew culture, the concept of "good" was deeply intertwined with the character and nature of God. The creation narrative in Genesis repeatedly uses "towb" to describe God's creation, emphasizing its perfection and harmony. The term also reflects the Hebrew understanding of life, where goodness is associated with divine favor, prosperity, and moral integrity.
“Evil”: The Hebrew word "ra'" is a versatile term used throughout the Old Testament to describe anything that is morally, ethically, or physically negative. It can refer to actions, thoughts, intentions, or conditions that are contrary to God's nature and commandments. As an adjective, it describes something as evil or wicked, while as a noun, it can denote wickedness or evil itself.”
What these more expanded understandings show is that while the Creator of the account of the first creation story put within their creation the ability to reflect God, this “god” forbid them from understanding for themselves what is morally acceptable and unacceptable.
The First Time Man Sold His Soul!
The imposter even sweetened the deal with promising Adam everything—immortality, provision, power—as long as he doesn’t awaken his own discernment.
This is the first time a man sold his Soul, and it sure sounds a lot like those who sold (souled) their souls in Hollywood in exchange for fame, fortune, and power.
This creator then parades all the animals in front of him and allows him to name them, and while he’s sleeping he magically wakes to a woman next to him with this god telling Adam it was from his body.
Adam gets an inflated ego and thinks he must be a creator like his god, and then names the woman as something that came from him… this defies not only logic, but the laws of nature that were already setup by the first creation story.
Instead of understanding God within, having a gnosis-an experiential awareness-of god, this new god forbids that personal awareness.
Instead of creating from one’s own inspiration, this god mimics from what was already made.
Instead of life coming from Divine Feminine inspiration that cares for life by bringing order into chaos, this god creates servants to blindly tend to his garden and jump to his every request.
Ego Without Soul Connection is Psychosis
What this feels like to me is what happens when the Ego takes over and forgets where it came from and who provides life, then tries to do things on their own, only to make a big mess because they ignored the instructions from the Soul.
This god isn’t even making anything original, he’s using what was already there, and then secluding them in a garden, away from the rest of creation, away from where they really came from.
Eden wasn’t a paradise, it was an experimentation on separating humanity from their Source.
Questioning the Narrative
What happens next is the plot twist this trickster god never saw coming…… the woman he tried to control by making a clone of her and lying to the man that she came from him…
She was still by nature connected to her blueprint as a Creator…
And I’m pretty sure that’s why Sky Daddy didn’t tell her to her face not to eat of the Tree of “Good and Evil”-the experiential awareness of the nature of God- because he knew he couldn’t pull the wool over her eyes.
So he did what any narc daddy would do and set the trap… Eve comes across this tree and encounters what the Bible says is a serpent, however when we look at the original word’s meaning, it paints a different picture:
?“The Hebrew verb "nachash" (serpent) primarily refers to the act of divination or seeking omens. It is used in the context of attempting to gain insight or foretell future events through supernatural means.
In the ancient Near East, divination was a common practice among various cultures, including the Canaanites, Egyptians, and Babylonians. It involved interpreting signs, omens, or using objects like arrows, entrails, or celestial bodies to predict the future or gain guidance.””
In classic Hebrew way, we see the double meaning again going on. As Eve gets close to the tree, she’s experiencing a being that is practicing divination or sorcery as a means of connecting with God.
Sorcery at its root is connecting to the animating force of life (Spirit) that is in all things. And if the Spirit is in all things, then it would make sense to connect with the spiritual nature of all things to understand the signs of God. Afterall, the stars were created to keep track of the times and seasons, how else does the Creation reflect the wisdom of the Creator?
Eve was starting to wake up from the delusion that she came from a man, and that she needed to blindly trust. She saw that life came from her, not Adam, and began her own spiritual quest.
Deceitful, or a BAMF?
This sorcerer of sorts was cunning. And while the mistranslation would like you to think that this means deceitful, it’s much more complex than that. Let’s back it up to what the verse says:
“The serpent was the shrewdest (most cunning) of all the wild animals the LORD God had made.”-Genesis 3:1
That’s a pretty sloppy mistranslations. The original language reads:
“Now the serpent was more cunning than any beast of the field that the which had made Yahweh god. And the serpent said to the woman, “Indeed has said god not you shall eat of every tree of the garden?”
But when I looked up the word “beast” and “cunning” it changed the dynamic of the story!
“Beast”: The Hebrew word “chay”-alive, raw, fresh, strong, life.
The Hebrew word "chay" primarily denotes the state of being alive or living. It is used to describe living creatures, life itself, and sometimes metaphorically to refer to prosperity or vitality. In the Old Testament, "chay" is often used to contrast with death, emphasizing the dynamic and active nature of life. It can also refer to the quality of life, such as in expressions of well-being or flourishing.
In ancient Hebrew culture, life was seen as a divine gift from God, and the concept of "chay" was deeply intertwined with the covenant relationship between God and His people. Life was not only a biological state but also a spiritual condition, reflecting one's relationship with God. The Israelites understood life as a blessing and a sign of God's favor, often associated with obedience to God
“Cunning”: The Hebrew word "arum" is used in the Bible to describe a range of characteristics from positive prudence and wisdom to negative cunning and deceit. It often denotes a sense of being skillfully resourceful or strategically wise, but it can also imply a morally questionable craftiness, depending on the context
In ancient Hebrew culture, wisdom and prudence were highly valued traits, often associated with successful leadership and survival. However, the line between wisdom and cunning could be thin, and "arum" captures this duality. The term reflects the complexity of human character and the importance of discernment in evaluating actions and intentions.”
When I read that it looks like it’s saying that the sorcer was wiser than any life, creation, blessing, or gift the Lord god had made because the sorcerer wasn’t something the Lord god made to begin with.
Let’s Flip the Script
Eve tells the sorcerer that her god told her she would die if she ate from this tree, and the sorcerer responds with, “Surely you will not die for your gods understand that as soon as you eat from the tree you eyes will be opened and you will be like them, understanding for yourself “what is deeply intertwined with the character and nature of God,” and what is “morally, ethically, or physically negative.”
“In ancient Hebrew culture, the eye was considered the window to the soul, a concept that resonates with many cultures throughout history. The eye was not only seen as a physical organ but also as a symbol of one's inner thoughts and intentions. The metaphorical use of "ayin" to mean a spring or fountain reflects the agrarian society's reliance on natural water sources, which were vital for survival and prosperity.”
The sorcerer reminds her that the real Creator made everything to enjoy, proceeds to knock her god off the pedestal of being the Supreme God by calling them gods as in powers, and tells her that the only reason they don’t want her to eat the fruit, is because she’ll finally be able to observe the truth for herself and become like them!
What if the Fall Was the First Rebellion Against Tyranny?
Eve sees the fruit is pleasing to the eyes (could also be translated her heart craved to see the truth), and she longed for wisdom, so she ate from the tree.
This wasn’t sin.
This was a rebellion against tyranny!
This was a RECLAMATION of divinity within!
So What Was Eden Really?
A garden zoo.
A fabricated paradise to trap sovereign beings in servitude.
An illusion of safety.
A fortress of control.
And the moment Eve remembered who she was—it crumbled.
The Narcissitic Collapse
Sure the story says god kicked Adam and Eve out, but let’s be honest…they weren’t going to be able to stay because they couldn’t play by god’s rules anymore.
Rather than fess up to the whole scheme, the imposter does what any good narc does and lands a cosmic DARVO (Deny, Attack, Reverse Victim, and Offender). This is a common manipulation tactic used by abusers or narcissistic individuals when confronted with their harmful behavior. Here’s how it plays out:
Deny — They deny the behavior or wrongdoing completely.
Attack — They then attack the person who confronted them (emotionally, verbally, or even socially).
Reverse Victim and Offender — Finally, they position themselves as the victim and the actual victim as the aggressor.
When he finds out that they understand they are naked, he already knows it’s because they ate the fruit he told them not to eat. Rather than fess up to holding out on them, he completely bypasses accountability, goes straight into blaming the man, and then places curses on everyone for messing up his little game.
I mean the tone from the first creation story being one of a mother excited about creating and providing for her creation, to the second story being one of a man obsessed with being served and admired, is STRIKING!
Adam had no backbone. He bought the delusion that woman came from him, accepted whatever Eve handed him, and collapsed the moment he was asked to take responsibility.
This is how we are when we are in the Ego and disconnected from the Soul. WE can’t see what brings life, so we’re pushed around by everything that comes our way, stuck in survival, submitting to whatever is the greatest power in that moment, forgetting all along that the power was always in us.
But the Connection to God was Always There
The Sorcerer came to remind Eve of who she truly was—not Adam, because Adam was never the leader. Eve was the original blueprint. The embodied wisdom. The one who holds the codes of life.
And so we return to Eve.
The woman who never rebelled—but remembered.
Who dared to reclaim her divine awareness.
Who dared to question the god that demanded submission and silence.
Who saw through the performance, and chose wisdom.
WHAT IF…
We’ve had it backwards all along?
The “fall” was actually the beginning of waking up?
The snake wasn’t Satan… but the Soul’s whisper?
Eating the fruit was the moment we stopped being pets in a zoo and began reclaiming our sovereignty?
This entire distorted god—this sky daddy obsessed with control—wasn’t God at all… but the projection of a wounded masculine psyche terrified of the power of the feminine?
This is the Psychosis of Modern Theology
And it didn’t stop in Genesis. It echoes in pulpits, in parenting, in institutions. And it continues to wreak havoc on our connection with the divine, with ourselves, with one another.
But here’s the real plot twist:
Christ Consciousness never left.
It’s been whispering to you from within your own being.
And Yeshua didn’t come to start a religion—
HE CAME TO REMIND YOU OF WHO THE F*CK YOU ARE!
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I’d love to hear your reflections.
What did this stir in you?
What did you once believe… and now feel shifting?
Let’s begin a conversation.
Because Part 2 is coming…
And next, we’ll be looking at how this imposter god shows up in modern theology as a narcissistic parent gone absolutely psychotic.
We’ll dissect the commands that contradict nature and soul.
And we’ll trace how Yeshua came to flip the tables on the lies.
Until then… remember:
✨ Restoration is the rebellion against silence.
✨ You are the blueprint.
✨ And the feminine is remembering who She is!
***all explanations for Hebrew words and scriptures used were from Biblehub.com***
